~The night after Dean is cured~
*lays in bed*
*stares up at ceiling*
*sits up suddenly*
Holy fuck I’m bi
Coda for 10x03: Soul Survivor
When Castiel closes the door behind him, he doesn’t walk away.
He knows he should. He knows that the conversation is over, and that Dean is safe and relatively sound. He knows he should at least check on Hannah.
But what Cas knows and what he wants are two very different things.
He tells himself it’s okay to rest for a moment; to collapse against the wall next to his best friend’s door and just stop. He doesn’t want to let himself think, but that seems to be unavoidable after the day he’s had. Dean is himself. Dean is alright. Dean still has the Mark.
And Cas’s grace will fade away eventually.
The newly healed angel buries his face in his knees, trying to banish those thoughts. They’ve overcome an almost insurmountable obstacle today, and Sam is right in celebrating. They should all eat disgusting greasy food. They should all get drunk. And Castiel, good man that he is, should keep himself in check.
He shouldn’t spend his time being so ridiculously happy that Dean is, for now, well. He shouldn’t hug him, nor should they have meaningful conversations. He shouldn’t get close to Dean or Sam, and he certainly shouldn’t go and ask Hannah to leave, despite the fact that she’s his friend. Castiel is a time bomb. His new grace will soon run its course and he can’t stay knowing that. He can’t be happy knowing that.
But is it so wrong to want a night with his family? Is it so wrong that he wants to be alone with them? With Dean? Dean, who Cas knows is currently self-deprecating himself into oblivion; who he knows already carries so much guilt…
They’ve bonded over that tendency before. Perhaps they could do it again.
the single thing that supernatural fans can agree on: we all fucking thought that was abbadon at the end
YEAH BREAK MY HEART
Chris Evans behind the scenes of Captain America: The First Avenger
OH STOP IT YOU GUYS
what really happened in the episode
CAS YOU LEARNED THE WRONG THING FROM THE WINCHESTERS
Thank you, for saving my brother. From me.
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